LYRICS
. Feels like I wear a costume To fool myself and fool you too Feels like I wear a mask Am I doing good? It depends who you ask Am I pretending for real When I do to good to be true But you believe in me And I want to Am I pretending for real? Am I good as I seem Am I bad as I think I see myself through my eyes Wish I could see through yours sometimes Faking it till I make it
. You turn your back to wash your face I turn to face the other way The way you take each labored breath Tells me that there’s nothing left You’re falling I can’t stop your motion Though I’m trying to hold on You’re falling I’ll beat you to the bottom So I’m breaking your fall I want to be strong when you’re not You’ve no one else; I’m all you’ve got I want to give a hand to hold A place to rest, a place like home You’re falling I can’t stop your motion Though I’m trying to hold on You’re falling I’ll beat you to the bottom So I’m breaking your fall Maybe it’s time I let go I’ve done all I can It’s out of my hands You’re falling I can’t stop your motion Though I'm trying to break your fall
. I was at the party Then all the food was gone It was really getting late Then they brought out the PS1 Been a long time since I played But I still got skills on Pro skater Like I said, it’s getting late I’ll see you later I’ll never forget these times That seem so mundane but make me feel alive Cruising on empty streets All my windows down Breezy 62 degrees Man I love this town I’ll never forget these times That seem so mundane but make me feel alive Every chance I get I try to look around Soak up all the sights and smells And hear every little sound I thank God for all I have Every little breath I try to be thankful in the good times And the bad
. GOOD THOUGHTS FOR BAD TIMES I haven’t felt this good in a while I don’t want this time to end Storing up the memories like photos In my mental filing cabinets Good thoughts for the bad times Come and hold and comfort my mind The scent of pine on the wind Rough pavement on my skin All the light shining from your face Feeling your heartbeat on my chest Compact umbrella for a rainy day Fold it up, put it in my pocket for when the sun goes away
. AWAKE I don’t know why I’m always tired I sleep all day and I sleep all night I just wanna be awake to live my life All I feel like doing is just going back to sleep My super soft supportive bed’s got such a hold on me Is everything breaking down Or is it just in my head I wanna be awake I wanna wake up I wanna soak it in Every second I get What day is this Is there anything that I missed I’m living in the future present and past Am I talking in circles, am I making any sense My bed will always be there It’s not going anywhere
. HERE WITH ME Why do you love me When I can’t even love myself I know, that deep down I love me Sometimes, I just need some help When it’s hard to take a shower And hard to brush my teeth ‘Cause I can’t get out of bed I just sleep But I know I can do this Because I got you here with me I cry, when I feel numb I cry when I feel too much I need someone to hold To hold on tight to me, even when I let go When it’s hard to take a shower And hard to brush my teeth ‘Cause I can’t get out of bed I just sleep But I know I can do this Because I got you here with me Thank you for giving me time Thank you for letting me be part of your life There’s nothing I can ever do to repay you So I wrote you this song to thank you For being so strong for me Thank you for all you do Thank you for being you
. WHILE YOU'RE YOUNG I slept like a pretzel last night Now my back is out of whack I see what the adults mean When they say they get hurt in their sleep One day burns into a week One week melts into a month Before you know it A decade’s gone Enjoy it while You’re Young, young We all have a job we hate We all have bills we have to pay I miss the grade school days Living a carefree life like back in the first grade One day burns into a week One week melts into a month Before you know it A decade’s gone Enjoy it while You’re Young, young It's not too early It's not too late To treasure all of your days Enjoy it while You’re Young, young
. DEPEND ON I want someone I can depend on Like the kick on the ones and threes I want somebody for the long run Somebody who won’t walk out on me Somebody I can trust With the Things That mean the most to me Somebody I can trust To stand up And stand by me Could it be you? I want someone I can depend on Like 4 legs on a chair I want someone I can believe in Somebody who’s always gonna be there I’ve trusted before Something I don’t so easily anymore I got burned And I learned To go it alone I got hurt I got scared Because I’m not that strong I want someone I can depend on Like my heart keeps the beat Somebody I can really lean on Like my crutches after knee surgery
. ALRIGHT Drink all my water Take care of myself 64 ounces I’m doing so well Why do I break down I’m trying so hard But it gets so hard sometimes I Barely slide by I just want to be Alright Write everything down Separate good from bad Is it true or false? Toss out all of the wrongs I’m trying so hard But it gets so hard sometimes I Barely slide by I just want to be Alright From the morning Until I went to bed I used to think I’d drown But I keep swimming instead I’m trying so hard But it gets so hard sometimes I Barely slide by But I know that I’ll be Alright
. LET ME BREATHE (HOW TO BREAK OUR HEARTS) You told me That I don’t have to leave You know me It’s a possibility You don’t own me You don’t give me room to breathe Let me breathe I don’t need you You don’t need me Why do we keep doing these things? We push we pull we burst apart We both know how to break our hearts We’re living In a nightmare of a dream You’re stealing All I have left of me Yet here we are again Why do we pretend?
. DEFINITIVE UNKNOWNS I slide in Sit down in My chair I’ve had for years It won’t hold It creaks then it folds And I’m lying on the floor Nobody’s laughing Nobody cares It’s all the same here It happened to theirs Oh, definitive unknowns Are all I’ve ever known Since I’ve been here But hey, you say it’s all okay You play me like a game Flirting with fear You say that I don’t have to play, That I could walk away, Get out of here When I get Settled in Put my keys in the drawers I notice My pocket Has a hole from the outside it’s been torn Nobody's looking ‘cause nobody's there It’s such a shame here They ran away scared When I leave you I won't look back I would love to let you go Like wisdom teeth And appendices I don’t need you Oh no
. SCARED NOW I have lots of keys But there’s lots of doors But can I help you find What you’re looking for? I’ll be there for you When you need me Am I healing your wounds Or making them bleed? And I’m scared now That I’ve pumped you up with false hope And you’ll break down With no hope of ever getting up Because you’ve been here before And stayed too long And I don’t know How this will end Love like a sister The one you never had If I’m your protector Then why’s your eye black? I hate to see you blue I hate to see you hurt Do you like me around Or do I make things worse? And I’m scared now That I’ve pumped you up with false hope And you’ll break down With no hope of ever getting up Because you’ve been here before And stayed too long And I don’t know How this will end I’m sorry for what I said I thought it was the truth I worked with the scraps I had I just wanted to help you
. WHAT I NEED Stab me, stab me friend Show me where I’m weakest Wounds from a friend Can be trusted Though it hurts a little bit I live and I learn I crash and I burn I won’t go so fast next time I need you to be honest Though it’s not what I’m wanting But it’s ok to make me cry Give me what I need, Not just what I want Grab me by my neck Drag me where you’re going We both know that I don’t know Which way I need to go I'm dying to get better even if it hurts You're the last option I considered I wish I came to you first
. WORTH LIVING No matter what you think or how you feel, you matter and you’re worth it. Don’t give up. I released this song on September 4, leading up to World Suicide Prevention Day (September 10) and US National Suicide Prevention Week (September 6 - 12). I wrote the song to encourage people who struggle with depression or suicide, especially during this global pandemic. lyrics I want to see all of your hair Crown your head in silver I want to see it all fall out But I need you here around Please don’t believe the lies Lodged inside of your mind Your life is worth living Please don’t leave me behind I want you to go to the store And flash your senior discount card For the things that old people buy Discount your groceries not your life Please don’t believe the lies Lodged inside of your mind Your life is worth living Please don’t leave me behind So I’m taking your sharps and ties You won’t be using our keys tonight I’ll always be right by your side We’ve got to keep you alive
. FLAVOR Craving some flavor, craving some spiciness Days run together making a normal mess So if the days don’t change, maybe I could So if the days don’t change, maybe I should Am I the flavor, the taste that brings the zest? Or am I safer, stifle the fire inside your chest? So if the days don’t change, maybe I could So if the days don’t change, maybe I should Being like the baker, baking sweet cakes and bread Salt from the shaker, but am I still fresh? So if the days don’t change, maybe I could So if the days don’t change, maybe I should Though the world’s deranged, I’ll be good
. TAKE MY WORDS So take my words, don’t write them down but don’t let them fall to the ground catch them in your mind and hide them in your heart and from your lips don’t let them depart, oh no Live as I’ve lived, love as I’ve loved give all you can give, you can never give enough an anxious heart, weighs a person down but a kind word, lifts them off the ground So take my words, don’t write them down but don’t let them fall to the ground catch them in your mind and hide them in your heart and from your lips don’t let them depart Above all else, guard your heart please protect yourself, it’s where life starts Unfolding these words, brings light and grants understanding, to the simple mind Listen carefully, tune your ears ‘cause you won’t have me, in a few more years So take my words, don’t write them down but don’t let them fall to the ground catch them in your mind and hide them in your heart and from your lips don’t let them depart, oh no
. BETTER DAYS The pain won’t go away because you cry So wipe your nose and dry your eyes Take a nap then tackle the world Feels like nothing on your side but time, on your side Better days come with better nights Lately yours have been so long I wish I could help you,I wish I could help you With what went wrong Sometimes all we’ve got Are the lies, the lies, the lies Searching for reasons to try, to try, to try But I try There’s no more gas left in your car The fumes can only take you oh so far, oh so far The only time you have is now So take care of yourself
. O HOLY NIGHT O holy night, the stars are brightly shining, It is the night of the dear Savior’s birth; Long lay the world in sin and error pining, 'Till he appeared and the soul felt its worth. A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices, For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn; Fall on your knees, Oh hear the angel voices! O night divine! O night when Christ was born. O night, O holy night, O night divine.
. UNTIED The smell of rain in the morning I’ll let you know that you’re wanted I’ll take the gray with the gold Love you with both of my hands Make you understand that I’m still holding on And I said that I’d be here when Your worst fears Come alive And I told you That I’d hold you Together When your pieces don’t fit right When you come Untied Warm tea heats cold fingers I’ll make sure you remember I’ll take the red and the blue Love you with all of my soul I’ll make sure to let you know I won’t walk out on you When your weather’s not fair I’ll be there Even when your momma and daddy are gone When everybody in the world has done you wrong I’ll stay closer than your bones
. BITTERSWEET I don’t know when you’re going But I know your feet moving fast I don’t know where you’re going But I know I got your back Sugar on a lemon I know your time is coming Molasses on a lime But still I’ll break down and cry The wind blows from east to west Sun rises and sets the same The phone rings; the answer is yes But I won’t forget your name Sugar on a lemon I know your time is coming Molasses on a lime But still I’ll break down and cry I thank God for the time we had And pray we savor what’s left As we turn our heads to look back Let’s remember the best
. WELCOME I saw the freckles on your face for the first time today Usually you hide them behind heavy layers of paint I saw the corners of your mouth touch your ears today Usually I only see your teeth only when you talk Oh sister, how much I missed you Welcome home I saw your hair a-bouncing with each step Usually you keep your lovely locks all locked up I felt the heat from your warm eyes for the first time in a while I used to think the fire inside had died completely Oh sister, how much I missed you Welcome home
. ROOMMATE I said I’m signing a contract A business agreement I said I love you as a human But don’t get it twisted, I’m not your friend And I thought if I signed the dotted line I could help you keep your mind intact I don’t know what I’m doing here I told you I’d go And not come back, and not come back Oh roommate Don’t need a key but I hold one You left the door standing open Don’t need heat The fire’s still burning I’ve got the candles you keep forgetting And I thought if I signed the dotted line I could help you keep your mind intact I don’t know what I’m doing here I told you I’d go And not come back, and not come back You insisted I stay It’s a safe place next to your heart I pretended to cave This is the last I’ll pay for what I don’t want A roommate
. TENSION You’ve got the lights low And hope I won’t see you My eyes may be weak But that won’t stop me from caring I want to find something To say But I’ve got nothing To melt the pain away I’ll give you all my loving Or I can give you space Just a bunch of tension And release I hold on tight to you You let go of me But I won’t let go And watch you struggle Alone You say you’re ok But I refuse to believe you Your hands are shaking Why won’t you look at me? Just a bunch of tension And release I hold on tight to you You let go of me But I won’t let go And watch you struggle Alone There’s truth in love Don’t believe the lies Trust the process Give it some time
. ARMS Nine long my eyes bank on the wall Waiting for the hands to give the numbers I need A lottery almost guaranteed Yeah then I will be free In an absence of sleep I dream to fall into you so deep Put your arms on me Come and hold me close Oh no never let me go Whoa oh oh oh, oh oh, oh oh Igniting a roaring rumbling Wind blowing caressing me But the touch still feels so empty Lock hits key I crumble in defeat But I stand up to my feet You are just who I need Put your arms on me Come and hold me close Oh no never let me go Whoa oh oh oh, oh oh, oh oh And I’ll hold you You’ll hold me We’ll stop time Or at least we’ll try
. WE MOVE ON Deleting what we've seen Warm fingers cold screen Recycling before our eyes We can't find surprise So we move on But it hurts What we've seen can't be unseen Immortal dreams in concrete Now we have a choice to make Do we leave, do we leave or do we stay? So we move on But it hurts Life goes on So we move on But it hurts
. SILENCE 26 letters and I got nothing to say The whole English alphabet just gone to waste I won’t pick up the phone And waste your time tying up your line All you’re gonna hear from me is silence On the other side 32 teeth and one strong little tongue Learned to bite it so I won’t do no wrong A sheath for a sword, a holster for a gun But one little spark, and your whole forest is gone I won’t pick up the phone And waste your time tying up your line All you’re gonna hear from me is silence When the time comes, I’ll call There’s a time to speak A time for war But right now I think I’ll hold my peace I won’t pick up the phone And waste your time tying up your line All you’re gonna hear from me is silence On the other side
. IF I used to think that you were ok But I never looked past your face One day I drew the away the drapes If I had seen that you were drowning I would have pulled you out If I had seen that you were tangled I would have cut you out The mirror hides a forest of orange Trees whose names I can’t even say How long have you been suffering this pain? If I had seen that you were drowning I would have pulled you out If I had seen that you were tangled I would have cut you out Please forgive me for thinking you were fine all this time Let’s go to the end of this tunnel I’ll walk this rugged road with you You’re not alone
. CAN'T TAKE IT BACK My fingers take the same shapes My teeth bite the same tongue I keep doing the same things When will I see enough blood? I can’t take it back Relive the past Rewrite the facts I can’t take it back My forehead’s built of bronze My neck is cast of iron Mentality made of flint Have I started enough fires? I can’t take it back Relive the past Rewrite the facts I can’t take it back I can’t take it back Like I pull in a breath I can’t take it back
. NO MORE WE My rubber knife shouldn’t break skin But it’s strong enough to strike a nerve Am I like a madman who throws firebrands? Deceiving the neighbors to say I’m just joking? I don’t know why I believed That you couldn’t bleed, you couldn’t bleed There’s no more we It’s just you and me, just you and me I ate sweet words of whisperers They went down so smoothly like poison in honey Now there’s no more we; it’s just you and me I don’t know why I believed That you couldn’t bleed, you couldn’t bleed There’s no more we It’s just you and me, just you and me There’s a time to plant and a time to harvest Alone, I’ll be reaping what I’ve sown I don’t know why I believed That you couldn’t bleed, you couldn’t bleed There’s no more we It’s just you and me, just you and me No more we; it’s just you and me
. LOSING YOU Sitting under the orange tree I watch the fruit fall and bruise The leaves were golden in spring But my rivers were blue To keep the sun out all night I built a copy with mirrors Towering a thousand flights To drive out the fear Losing you There hear the music two hours away And the peaches are close too A dead general can't persuade you to stay Neither can a bright newt Losing you In the distance I see your train But will I see you again?
. I'LL LEAVE THE LIGHT ON You’ve been gone far too long Now I’m wondering I wait here all alone My ears are hurting To hear a growl down the road And rubber burning I’ll leave the light on till you come home, brother I’ll leave the light on till you come home As midnight invites the moonlight To flood the sky Your heart of gold has not gone rogue It’s still a good guide Boomerang and rest to catch your breath though it’s not perfect I’ll leave the light on till you come home, brother I’ll leave the light on till you come home
. COFFEE You’ve got problems, I’ve got coffee Drink deep and breathe the steam I’ll take your hand; I won’t let go ’Til you awake from this bad dream Hair like waves in the ocean Caring eyes just as blue Spirit brighter than the sun Spreading love and truth Wise heart so discerning Before you think to open your mouth She knows you’re hurting She asks if you want to pray about it She says You’ve got problems, I’ve got coffee Drink deep and breathe the steam I’ll take your hand I won’t let go ’Til you awake from this bad dream She knows she ain’t got all the answers Standing about 5’2 Reads from the book that’s taken her heart And with love she speaks the truth Has a strong, gentle old soul But 23 years, that’s a young life Floated south on the sea foam From upstate N.Y. But she can’t walk on water Sure can’t turn it into wine She’ll offer a kind shoulder A listening ear and sacrificed time She says You’ve got problems, I’ve got coffee Drink deep and breathe the steam I’ll take your hand I won’t let go ’Til you awake from this bad dream
